So, my friend had her surgery, everything went well, and they said that she doesn't have cancer, but they're going to run some more tests just to make sure. I was supposed to spend the day in the hospital with her yesterday but because of some issues with our electricity we ran out of time and i didn't get to get up there to see her. She's at home, I talked to her a little this morning, she said she was feeling horrible and that she's upset about her scar. They said they were only going to cut on the left side, but ended up having to cut along the front of her neck as well. She sent me a picture, and typically I would post it, but it's not really my business to post people in the hospital. Just seems wrong, but... she is doing okay and they let her come home today, so thank you all for your thoughts and prayers for her. She's a major light in my world (Billies as well) and frankly we don't know what we would do without her. So... yay! Lets send healing thoughts her way... xD
I'm supposed to go hang out with my Kate-e-kins later, after she's done with all of her shit, and we're gonna make our third YouTube video for Super Uber Fuck Your Shit Up Crew Show, if you haven't seen the first two here is the link... Super Uber FYSUC I have a blast editing them, but Kate is more the talker, thank God. So i don't know what our new video will be about, but i'm sure it'll fuck your shit up.
It's so quiet in this place when he's not here, and i have a hard time breaking the silence with music, i'm not sure if it's because I just don't know what I'm in the mood to listen to, or if I just enjoy it while it drives me bonkers.
I really need to spend a day at my apartment, and start packing up and cleaning for the move, yup, i'm going to move in with Billie, I know i know it hasn't worked before, but there is a first time for everything and while yes we're doing it partly because life is expensive but mostly because we love each other and can't really bring ourselves to sleep apart from each other. We've been a little cramped up together because of the car situation but once that is fixed we'll both have the breathing room we -need- to process and think, and do whatever it is we do when we're alone. I watched I Love You, Man yesterday for the first time. And Peter is kind of like me, he's a girlfriend guy, i'm a boyfriend girl... I know that I've gotten a boyfriend and let me friends fall to the wayside, and Billie has rarely asked me to ditch my friends and not have any. If he has it's because well, they were probably pieces of shit that were doing me literally more harm than good. I have a hard time seeing that sometimes... my "friends" consider me pure entertainment and could really give a shit less about my actual well-being. But I think I'm starting to get a good small group of friends that really do give a shit about me. I've never had the same friends my entire life, I mean I have Robyn, and her and I can't really go kick it being that she lives like 12 hours away. Tina and I have been friends for shit almost 13 years but we're so busy I'm not even sure that I would consider her a good friend anymore. I don't know the last time we spoke. There are people from high school, who are friends but none of which i really see on the reg. But there is Kate, Brandy and Jeff. Those are my homies right there, Kate and I grew up seriously like 30 miles away from each other in Colorado, then met one night at the pub, we've always just gotten along and crack each other up, keep each other safe and sound. She's my P.I.C fo sho. Brandy, well as I said she's a major light in my life, and has been for almost the past year. I can talk to her about anything and she'll give me the honest truth, she'd give me the shirt off of her back and I would give her mine. Jeff, now that's my little brother, we share a connection of... "yeah we're both really fucked up in the head and have our issues so i know I can talk to you about this and you won't judge but you'll understand and have my back no matter what." and so far with a little bit of disrespect to other along the way we're pretty close. You guys already know Billie is my absolute best friend, he has been for the past 6 years if we've been together or not. No one really knows me the way he does, and I doubt anyone ever will. He is why I bother waking up in the morning, he is what I picture when I think about my future and hearing the front door open and saying "Daddy's home!!!" to my kids. He's the only one i've ever been able to flawlessly picture saying "I do" to and everything else in this world. After all "love is friendship on fire" (the perfect man).
Lets talk for a moment about some music, there are two bands I can -always- listen to, no matter the mood, the day, the time of year... and that is Lucero, and The Frames. If you haven't listened to them, you really should. I've listened to Lucero since I was 17, and the Red Rose was booming, the summer before i met Charlie, the summer before I had my heart broken for the first time in my life. Lucero go me through our first break up, and well after our second break up i met Billie and he and Lucero made me more than whole again. The Frames, well, heh, they got me though Billie and I's first break up, then our second, and third, and fourth, etc etc etc. Not so much the last one, because at that point I had introduced Billie to them and he had "grown up enough to like it", so i heard them and thought of him, and that was painful. But Lucero did get me through this last one, even went and saw them live at Mercy Lounge. Yeah, I thought of Billie the whole time, but it made me feel hopeful that one day he and i would be where were are now. Together and madly in love.
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"you're gonna sink wearing that heart of gold you're holding fast son you better let it go the weight of guilt son's gonna drag you down you better let it go else you're gonna drown a heavy cross'll make a brighter crown" -The Weight of Guilt, by Lucero, album- Rebels, Rogues, & Sworn Brothers
Lucero is from Memphis and are "southern rock, rockabilly, badass." that's how I categorize them anyway. Ben Nichols has a rough dry voice that a lot of people don't really like, but you know he loves what he does. They sing a lot of broken heart songs, and if you listen to the whole discography you can hear him growing up from "she broke my heart" into "let me get my grown man on". And I love hearing bands grow up, especially when i get the chance to grow up and change with them. I don't know where Lucero got their name or why they picked it, but after some research i found that it means a bright star (i'm assuming Spanish) OR an Italian name meaning "light".
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"We wield a mighty sword, that cuts through the bone and lays the liars down, we wield an angry sword that softens the stone and turns the tide around" -Mighty Sword, by The Frames, album- For the Birds.
The Frames are based in Dublin, Ireland and have like 6 albums and Glen Hansard has a movie out called "Once" which he sings and plays in... they sing some Frames songs. I'm not really sure what to write about them, because I do love them so, but I've never seen them live, and they've always been a little bit more grown up than i am, but it doesn't make me love them any less than Lucero. When I started to write this paragraph I decided to look up some information on them. And I always love knowing where the band names come from... this is off of their website so it's true... "The Frames are called The Frames because when Glen was small he used to fix all the bicycles in his neighbourhood for his friends. His house had bicycle frames lying all around and Glen could be seen up to his eyeballs in oil and grease with that big smile of his fixing bicycles. His house became known as the house with the frames. Hence the name The Frames." Just something I thought was interesting.
Maybe once a week I'll go through bands that I love and introduce you guys to them (if you don't already know them) and maybe just maybe they'll get you through a shit day.
-J-
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